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Hello Old Friend

October 19, 2017 3 comments


It’s been a while. I’m glad to be here though. Oh so much has happened…

I quit writing because I lost my vision for this blog. I grew and I changed and I didn’t know what to do with this space that was once a dear piece of myself. I kept thinking “what’s the point”. It’s not a well-read blog, it’s not a blog that has much to take-away, it’s just a blog that documents my thoughts and interests and I don’t know where the value is in that.

I wish I could say I’ve regained the vision I once had for this space, but I don’t think I have. What I have realized however, is that I have this terrible tendency to let perfectionism get in the way of my creativity. This blog has always been a very special creative outlet for me. It is the crux of three of my biggest passions: photography, design and writing. It is expressive, which is something I have missed – even if I’m not really expressing myself to anyone on here. It’s nice to just put it out there and occasionally, someone will stumble on my little corner of the internet and leave feedback.

The truth is, I have been having trouble expressing myself online in a lot of ways. First I developed a terrible love/hate relationship with Facebook, that progressed to pretty much just hate. Then I abandoned my blog, the pet project of my whole 20s. Now I find myself posting to Instagram once a week and getting no real gratification from it. I don’t feel creative, engaged or heard when it comes to the internet. I don’t know how to reignite the flame I once had for creativity and expression online, but for some reason I have been thinking about my blog a lot more lately and well… why not just give it another try. Why not let it be organic. If I think of it, I post. If I have something to share, I’ll share it.

Maybe I need to stop trying to achieve perfection and just go back to enjoying this space. Maybe if I create and create and create and share and share and share, maybe I will regain the inspiration I once had… or find something totally new.

If you’re reading this, by some odd chance, have you ever lost your will to create and express yourself? If so, did you get it back? HOW?!?!

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Tiffany November 15, 2017 - 7:37 am

I happened on your blog after randomly looking at your profile pictures in Facebook. I love them. I feel like they really express who you are, like you happen to be in beautiful places, but that isn’t the point. They are truly expressive of the subject not of the place, which is why I think I typically despise travel photos. I’m a photographer which is why I was drawn to your pictures. Anyway, regarding creativity… I think we all have ways we enjoy being creative, outlets that excite us and bring us to life. I find if I don’t create for a while, I have this nagging feeling and ideas keep coming to me until I do something about it. Then I feel at peace and the process starts again. Then there are other creative endeavors that take more discipline. Maybe writing is like that for you, or like you said, it may help to have a goal.

Karen Cheng January 18, 2018 - 7:38 pm

Hi Rachel!

I just came across your blog today and read this post. I’ve never actually commented on anyone’s blog before but I just wanted to tell you that this resonates so much with me. The wanting to create, but letting the perfectionist in me stop myself. I’ve kind of taken a break from creating the last four months, busying myself with adventures and new relationships. But something always brings me back. And that’s where I am now – finding inspiration and learning that hard work is the next step from being inspired. I just want to encourage you to keep writing! Keep journaling, whether it’s online or in a notebook. Keep taking photos, making art, even if you don’t post them. I love reading your older posts and it’s a truly gift that you can share your journey with the world!

Rachel January 22, 2018 - 9:51 am

Thank you so much for checking out my blog! I am so glad you’re back to your creative self. Isn’t it odd how it all ebbs and flows? Thank you so so much for the encouragement. I am redesigning this blog space in the next few weeks (hence whit it’s all white and janky looking!) and I’m definitely going to come back to the blog with a renewed vision and hopefully try to maintain posting.

thanks again for popping by!!!! stay in touch :)


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